Phil’s Diary - [Blog @ http://www.philsdiary.net/]
It’s a common enough phrase, “Am I going mad?”. Probably after you’ve just forgotten something. However there are days when I wonder whether my life is really real. Now I’m not talking Matrix-esque here. I’m thinking more like “A Beautiful Mind” style.
As an example, my phone at home records the number of each person who calls. Except the past few evenings, Ruth has called, and it’s not recorded that fact. My parents called, and it did.
I’m sure there’s some reason, but the first thing that I wonder is whether I’m going mad. Did Ruth call? I’m pretty sure she exists (I don’t think I’m that far gone yet), but did I just spend half an hour talking to myself?
To be fair I’ve not seen anything else yet that makes me wonder too much. And those that I have I think I can put down to answering the phone a little too quickly.
But it has set me thinking. The problem is that if I were properly loopy, I guess I could fashion a whole make believe world around me and not notice.
I guess there’s not too much I can do about it, if in fact I were going mad (which I don’t really think I am)
Posted by Phil on May 27, 2003 07:15 AM | Categories: Thoughts